i am trying my hardest to try and stay postitive or atleast try to be. ive been insanely sick over the last few days mainly throwing up and having a high fever that comes and goes so the frustration of being sick and a number of different things just begin to pile up after a while. im expecting a call from citi bank to set up a one on one interview so im looking forward to hopefully having a full time job hopefully within the next two weeks. ive stopped smoking pot for the time being mainly because i have to take a drug test for this job and its probably best that i take a break for a while, trevor came over last night for a few minutes and normally we both smoke together ALOT but last night was a good night, though we took a small trip to circuit city. i guess the store is closing down so trevor wanted me to go with him to see what kind of deals they had on digital cameras and such, it was over crowded and it smelled like hot cheeto's in there so you can imagine the nausea that began as soon as i walked in. anyway my birthday is coming up faster than i thought and so far i have no special plans besides hoping that someone takes me out for a nice steak dinner, yes steak.

ive been meaning to post over the last few days but i haddnt had any time to get around to it. anyway, a few days ago a few close friends and i thought that it would be a "good idea" to go inside bobs backhouse and set up some lights and music and drink. to my suprise the lights they ended putting up looked suprisingly good. mind you we started drinking at around 3 pm and from then on it was all down hill from there, i ended up coming home at around 4 am. we invited some people over and had a good time, theres something about a certain group of friends i have that makes me feel so welcome and comftrable when im around them, it feels nice. i attempted to take a few pictures while there was still some daylight out. they are not the best quality considering i tried to do this with my sidekick :/ over all itsprobably the most fun ive had on a random weeknight.

also i went bike riding with amanda and andrea, the ride for me diddnt work out so well considering i was using andreas bike and the seat was impossibly high to reach for me so i made it a couple of blocks down and then just decided i diddnt want to keep struggling to keep my ass on the seat so i went back. maybe next time i guess? today doesent feel like the middle of the week, infact im not really sure what today feels like. i wish it would rain.

its alright love i let a hater hate.

positive thoughts in 2009, i diddnt have any new years resolutions this year. i honestly diddnt even think about it. new years was good, every party my friends and i crashed seemed like a blur. all i can really remember was that we were the loudest drunkest people everywhere we went. 2008 was good to me. i failed to remember to take any pictures through the night. i definitely have had a crazy year, i can honestly say that after everything i am glad that everything has turned out this way and that somehow my disfunctional family of crazy friends works. im satisfied for now.

lastnight was fun, me and amanda are always getting ourselves into some mess but somehow always make the best of everything. we diddnt plan on going out but she picked me up, i loaded a bowl and we headed out. our friends bob, andrew, and matt invited us to hangout with them considering it was the last day they were housesitting bobs perents house. the house itself is like a little hideaway it always feels like you are some place near the beach. we hung out for a while drank and listened to good music. cant complain. happy birthday monica, my sister is 22 today. kudos to her. she lived through 21 years without ever having a single sip of alcohol.

GAME

OVER.

i really needed this. i saw people i haddent seen in a while andi had too many things going through my mind. i warned i wouldbe a sloppy drunk and i went though with it. never again. beverly hills makes me want to puke. back to the same routine. atleast theres a few happy thoughts.

love is the harmony desire is the key.

love is the melody now sing it with me.

halloween

was just one BIGGG blur.

who needs a synth when you have a baby?

wait for it to get good after about 30 secconds.
this is genius.

Here, were nothing more than fools and whores and sad highs, through the summer were living in a wasteland

the last couple of months my life has been nothing but crazy unexpected events. i have to say i havent been happyer though, the people that surround my life right now are all amazing in my opinion. ive met alot of cool people along the ride aswell. also, ive been trying to get back into painting alittle bit. i havent really done it in years but im hoping to get back onto it over the next couple of days, ive been seeing alot of inspiring shit everywhere. and apperently, i suck at taking pictures since i never want to buy a new pack of batteries because im too stingy to spend my money on that. i saw hot chip and vampire weekend last week and i have to say that hot chip blew my mind. they gave such a great performance. the lights were amazing and the 4 people i was with made it a giant dance party, i cant complain. i came out drenched in sweat and was sore. thats definitely a band i reccomend everyone going to see as long as the ticket price isnt 26 dollars to get in.. :[ m83, caribou, and the presets have been playing non stop on my computer and ipod for three weeks straight and i love it. tucson weather has been amazing lately, i love this time of year.